So, I don't know what's up with me, but I'm feeling kinda down.
I have this feeling in my stomach that is just...bad.
I feel like the only thing that I want to do is cry.
And it sucks. Because I don't know why.
There really isn't anything going wrong in my life right now...but all day, since I actually went to bed last night, I have just felt horrible.
The heat may have something do to with this...but I kind of doubt it...AC is on, and it's relatively cool in the house.
I guess I'm kinda stressing.
And I'm just getting one of those feelings...like I'm worthless.
I know that's not true, believe me.
But sometimes, I just don't feel like I matter.
And it's not making me very happy.
I'm feeling kinda alone.
And I shouldn't.
I'm starting to feel self conscious again....and I really don't like that.
I feel...well...ugly.
Ehh.
I should be more excited for camp. But I'm not really. I can't wait to go, for sure. But I'm not so sure...
I really miss SSS, but then again there's part of it that I don't.
I miss the people that I met, and are far away from me now.
I definitely miss the people like Scott and Aaron. Scott is my inspiration, and Aaron is my brother.
And yeah, I miss Zach. So much.

I'm kinda at the point where I wish I could just lay down and sleep forever.
My stomach is churning, and I'm sick of it.
Ok, thanks for listening...reading...whatever.
Love you guys. You're wonderful.